the only in the wealthy week

there is nothing can be more precious than that two hours. not only it's only NZD4, but also ♥sssly overwhelmed. thank you for having that 117 minutes with me.

不经意地刻意

有些刻意，是不经意地。。那么，还算刻意吗？

因为控制得不好，而变成压抑。
压抑久了，为了不让身子太难过，就开始自动性排斥，慢慢淡忘。
淡忘的过程，偶尔会想起：有时想得很凶；有时想得很柔。

有时，寄着那些回忆，感觉回来了；有时，有种莫名的失落，感觉好遥远。

yeap, i am.

This is for my boy: 

We'll do what we gotta do, see what we gotta see, and if in the end we end up together, then we'll know it was meant to be. 

This is for my sister, brother and sister: 

A lot of people walk in and out of my life, but... you're one of the only ones I ever really wanted to stick around.

This is for my dad and mom: 

I ofter catch myself constantly wondering how you are, sitting alone with my mind set so far, reminiscing about your smile, voice and touch, damn this life... I'm missing you too much!

i don't wanna admit this but it's happening: just bad luck, bad bad shitty luck.

nausea. no connection. no gold.

but i think i do still have love. yeap, i think so, very very uncertain though. huh?

希望自己是你要的完美

很难控制地怀疑。
有时候，以为真的是相通，却同时发现太多疑点。
有时候，真的咽不下那口气。
有时候，以为不在意了，可是莫名其妙的心闷。
有时候，好像天和渊，怎么都碰不到。
哪个是事实？哪个是误会？
信任归信任，直觉很难忽视。

放弃了，早就放弃了。常这么说，可是又正在写这些文字，真的放弃了吗？可笑，更可悲。
想，管不了就不管了：应该算是一点点一滴滴地在放弃。
要的，你有；不要的，你也有。
：“不应该要求~”
：“早就知道了！可是。。。”
吃着不该吃的东西；想着不该想的人；过着不该过的生活。什么是应​该？

有一天，对自己说：

然后大笑离去，不留一点风采，不回头看那摊溃烂。

sorry, I had a ridiculously immature thought. but my life is to be ridiculously legendary, so i guess it's okay~

flooded with Disney's Princesses lately...as I want to be one, I guess I can't.
~I can't sing
~I can't dance
~I can't talk to animals

that's why I cant. and the most critical one is ~ I am not~
maybe I was, but I am not~

what a day! but out of place =.=

second time of the semester: out of place.

it was a lovely day with unknown route, nice outlet, and petite woven material.
basically, this was just the process.

 the destination was shock, Shock, SHOCK! 

everything there was just so slim, leggy, gorgeous, smashing! 

discomfiture scarlet-ed. yet, eventually, confident needed to be regained. so, quirkily, it did. 

the end of it went well --- guess so.

HOPE is spotted.

Naruto's good luck and Rock Lee's hardship are both needed! AZA AZA!