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Thursday, 6 August 2015

歇斯底里（Hysteria）指无法控制地情感发泄。

~~看着四岁的她，哭得歇斯底里；~~
~~看着三十岁的她，哭得没有声音，没办法呼吸；~~

~~抱起四岁的她，眼泪也流了。~~

~~我明白，那无助、那彷徨、那悲愤、那崩溃。~~

~~你没有办法接受那样子的我，你说你讨厌那样发疯的我。~~
~~我承认，当下一定很可怕；我可以了解，你没有办法接受；~~
~~可是你明白，那种失去你的崩溃吗？~~

~~我爱你，我接受了事实。~~
~~我，想做朋友，你，几时才会按接受键?~~

you said that it's for the best, I also know that this is the best, our separation is the best, for both of us. I am glad that you have her, I can see that you love her, and she is good enough for you...I clearly know that, we are over. I know that, you have a new life, new friends, new you.

Tuesday, 28 July 2015

松树仙已成

感谢，感恩。

感谢你的策划，感谢我们的乱阵，乱中有序，才是自驾行的意义，可不是么

世外桃源，close enough...

朕仅155毫米向天升，可见这帐篷之矮小；但，少过八小时的体验却让人回味无穷。
为何过去的回忆能让当下更有感触，甚至影响明天的步伐？
都说了，人，就是执著。而懦弱的我，选择屈服，选择溺毙在远远地爱你。

生命里特别的人很多

中学时，上课想睡觉、想偷懒、生病；
旅行时，想靠一靠，躲一躲；
修身养性时，想meditate,感谢你的大腿

一起不小心森林系

一起特地牛仔系

爱你，无条件；因为我们是朋友，不需要磨合妥协；因为一起走向未来，不需要创造同一个未来；所以我们没有摩擦，没有争吵，没有纠结，我们，会一直很好。
（好啦，承认你脾气真的很好，所以可以迁就我～）

ｐ／ｓ

亲爱的，没有忽略你的意思　只是，我们没有合照啦！！！

七情六欲，不可能断却，不就得拿捏得好，这等小事，怎可能难倒公主、鱼丸妹和女皇呢？

花絮：

scrumptiously delicious Tiramisu, with the just-nice-amount-taste of cognac, for a non-coffee person like me, this is an A+.

all photos in this post, credited to my dear Princess.^-^

Monday, 20 July 2015

噩

"you are back, i didn't ask why.
I do not need a reason.
We hugged so tight, you cried, I hugged you tighter."

大头。。。

Woke up, I thought that it was real, was going to make the call.

... ...

Shuddering in sorrow, wanting to yelp, the latent of ending the life of misery.

Can't even cry, to prevent swelling eyes for class later;
Can't even allow the emotion, to avoid the submerge and drown.

She said that "it's alright, it's not true."
I want it to be true so much....

Wednesday, 8 July 2015

Do it, do it right.

90 days of holidays, it's never intended to be left blank, but incredibly meaningful.

Beach, sunshine and tanned are doubtlessly not my thing. Yet, why not? Gutsy I am **chuckle

First close encounter with turtle at Turtle Park, Bali,

aka the break up trip with my beloved ex.

Bringing no expectation but a belief that it's definitely going to be awesome, I indeed had a fantastically pleasant 5 days in Perhentian for turtle conservation.

Had been wanting to see turtles since ages ago, >>> was my second time having close encounter with turtle (the first time was not even worth mentioning).

After ~40 minutes of boat ride from Kuala Besut Jetty, (having to change boat in the middle of the ocean) I arrived at Coral Bay, being led straight to the cozy wooden house in the bush, a little but complete wooden house, surrounded by trees, but only eight steps away from the seaside, the perfect place for my five days stay.

Hammick

Work space

Kitchen

I guess Nick was able to read how enthusiastic I was, and being unable to sit down quietly and do nothing, he brought me out for the first snorkel to look for turtles! I was lucky to see about five turtles during the first snorkeling, and I was astonished by Nick, who was in Perhentian for about four months, and was able to tell the name or code of each turtle that we saw! Also, Petros did mention to me earlier that they recognized the turtles by looking at their faces! I was like, seriously?! They are turtles! They do not have different faces,urhmmm, do they? WELL ACTUALLY THEY DO! EACH AND EVERY TURTLES HAS SIGNIFICANT AND UNIQUE FACIAL SCALES. The conservation programme takes photos of the turtles, recording each side of its face, its back (shell) and flippers. These photos act as photo ID of each turtle. After snorkeling and photo taking, we matched the turtles we saw with the database. By recording the time and places of turtle activities, the programme is able to keep track with the numbers and I believe that the figure will be further utilized by institutions for research and conservation purpose.

Can you see the difference?

See the scales?

Yeah, snorkeling is daily routine for the programme, twice a day.

I was let to use the shower and Nick cooked me something nice, except with the garlic and onion ** laugh. Kidding Nick, it was not scrumptious but delicious enough to fill my grumbling stomach.

Thanks Nick!

I was extremely excited for the second night, as I was dutied for the night patrol. I enjoyed the boat ride to the nesting beach, the breeze was warm and the ocean was calm, and the sky that evening was so blue, WITH RAINBOW!

Packed dinner prepared by Charlotte and Yun

The night patrol was meant to look out for turtle eggs theft (both human or non-human) and also, records of nesting activities. I wasn't lucky enough to see any turtles coming up to nest, but... ... I GOT TO RELEASE MANY MANY MANY HATCHED BABIES BACK TO THE SEA!

THEY WERE JUST EXTRAORDINARILY, SPECTACULARLY, TERRIFICALLY ADORABLE!

<3 Photo credit to Kevin

The babies were taking their own sweet time to get use to the sand, to feel everything, turning on their senses.

We were assisting the Department of Fisheries for this. We collected the eggs and put them in the fenced hatching ground. If the babies are hatched at night, they will be released right away; if it happens during the day, they will be kept until night to avoid being eaten by the predator, to increase their chances of survival. yea, they are just so tiny. Looking at them crawling into the sea, wondering if they are swimming or being whirled away by the wave, yes I was so worried but... they gonna survive the obstacles. YES they will, well, some of them will, 1 out of 10,000 will.

Was pretty scared, it was quite a long night for me, but yea, tiredness and sleepiness overtook my fear, slept soundly, blanketed with the breeze.

Besides, with limited resources, creativity was eagerly needed for handcraft and arts. Charlotte and I made some coconut trees, out of trash, and created a beach-like model for their awareness campaign later.

Pretty impressed with the realistic size turtle model made by Nick

There were some other interesting activities but the babies part was the most worth mentioning memory, I mean it.

I abhor heat and sun but Petros told me that I gonna adore it towards the end of the programme. Well Petros, I dont think so, but I am kinda willing to sacrifice a little for all these cutie pies.

These cutie pies, look sooooo fragile. Bless you cuties <3

Hands-on contribution to animal conservation was indeed an admirable exposure and experience. Words from others can never be understood until we experience it ourselves. I crave for more, and yes the craving will be satisfied.