I am the QUEEN

when the dreams finally came true,
emptiness visits.

ain't that short anymore; ain't that cute anymore,

and it happened.

not with the person expected; not at the place expected;

and it happened.

it wasn't mere delight as usual; it was so complicated inside that four chambers: the oxygen from the left ventricle entered the right atrium.
it was exciting, exhilarating, invigorating, and...dramatic!

and soon after, disenchantment.

thoughts started to appear, not quite sure what was running through those myelinated axons especially the frontal lobe.

it's tiring to be not fragile and to not be fragile. yeah, screwing myself was kinda fun and torturing at the same time. but i guess it's well taken care of.

will i wake up dying?

what's in my heart? it's heavy and pressured...

because i pretend that i dont care?

nahh, it''s physical this time... arhhh, i cant breath!!!

爱，去了哪？收那么多，又不能换钱~敢敢爱呗！

如果真爱一个人，就算被多次伤害，也不会不爱；只是，不敢爱了。。。---自私的爱

不是一见钟情，所以没记得~  （嗤~）

那么多那么多的第一次，细节忘了，因为没当记者的潜质。
然而，那种甜蜜，依然留在心头。
因为爱延伸，所以有机会再度发生，所以没必要记得第一次，那才会有惊喜---惊喜的甜滋滋

有时会莫名觉得很爱很爱（结婚吧！）；有时却觉得爱不见了。。。怎么回事？（是荷尔蒙吧？！是testosterone还是progesterone? ）


最真实的：是他厚厚粗粗的手，自有记忆以来，那么开放地拥抱与轻吻。
短暂，却足以让人在空荡荡的房里，用湿湿的眼角回味。。。

怀念

疏离了；走了；你呢？

啊！可真的老了呢！

看到他那面孔在那照片里，那不可思议的意外，依旧那么难以接受。

与你那么多的合照，怎么少了最新的近况呢？
想，好像不那么喜欢照相了。

特别珍惜好久以前认识的你们，那种只有你们才能给的安全感。
可不可以。。。？；可不可以。。。？；可不可以。。。？；。。。  。。。  。。。

希望自己是你要的完美

Why did it turn out like this?

You said, didn't want to hurt me. 

But, you just did.

无心

把期待温柔的钉子除了，放弃追求，停止愚昧。

需要的是时间：让一分一秒把疼痛麻痹，习惯伤痛，忘记梦想。

Acknowledgement

I realized that noone could be any better than you, the way you pampered me.
Thank you.

I knew that noone could be any sweeter than you, the way you regarded me.
Thank you.

I recognized that noone could be any wiser than you, the way you learnt for me.
Thank you.

I 'm aware that noone could be any greater than you, the way you covered for me.
Thank you.

I appreciated. Thank you, for making my life wonderful.