不可思议

一颗心，是脆弱的。
被揪着，无法自拔。

犇取赑梦

怎么梦里的都那么真实？

是不是，因为不可能成真，所以让焉享受那短暂的美好？

蠱毒我梦，麤拼了~曾猋搏于姦，沦落至今。。。

衰兰送客咸阳道，天若有情天亦老！

黯然未销魂，倘若能逢贵人惜，省得泣下沾襟无人晓；

几何人知玉容寂寞泪阑干，梨花一枝春带雨?

嗤~

从此无心爱良夜，任他明月下西楼

maybe love is a blind spot, not a solution

a relationship can serve many purposes.
















or it's only an excuse

有时，觉得自己是个笑话

I am the QUEEN

when the dreams finally came true,
emptiness visits.

ain't that short anymore; ain't that cute anymore,

and it happened.

not with the person expected; not at the place expected;

and it happened.

it wasn't mere delight as usual; it was so complicated inside that four chambers: the oxygen from the left ventricle entered the right atrium.
it was exciting, exhilarating, invigorating, and...dramatic!

and soon after, disenchantment.

thoughts started to appear, not quite sure what was running through those myelinated axons especially the frontal lobe.

it's tiring to be not fragile and to not be fragile. yeah, screwing myself was kinda fun and torturing at the same time. but i guess it's well taken care of.

will i wake up dying?

what's in my heart? it's heavy and pressured...

because i pretend that i dont care?

nahh, it''s physical this time... arhhh, i cant breath!!!

爱，去了哪？收那么多，又不能换钱~敢敢爱呗！

如果真爱一个人，就算被多次伤害，也不会不爱；只是，不敢爱了。。。---自私的爱

不是一见钟情，所以没记得~  （嗤~）

那么多那么多的第一次，细节忘了，因为没当记者的潜质。
然而，那种甜蜜，依然留在心头。
因为爱延伸，所以有机会再度发生，所以没必要记得第一次，那才会有惊喜---惊喜的甜滋滋

有时会莫名觉得很爱很爱（结婚吧！）；有时却觉得爱不见了。。。怎么回事？（是荷尔蒙吧？！是testosterone还是progesterone? ）


最真实的：是他厚厚粗粗的手，自有记忆以来，那么开放地拥抱与轻吻。
短暂，却足以让人在空荡荡的房里，用湿湿的眼角回味。。。