不过再多六十年

胃痛，头疼

提都不想提 

“为什么”

“不知道”

不知道是假，不想解释是真。

智慧，让我们远离蹉跎 

 

我愿意用我的生命，来交换我们的缘分 

给我一个拥抱，说服我，这一切已经结束了，好吗?

It is a great opportunity

Though it is making me extremely uncomfortable, but bearing in mind the initial reason I stepped out, why care if this is gonna work out eventually.

yes taking things easy is always a luring demon, and putting me in such political position is not fun at all, it is however, pushing me to face my incompetence. 

It is harsh, but it's gonna be fun.

这就是所谓展望未来的脸　＝）

遇上年轻的瓶颈

太多的做作，仿佛踏实才是不应该

不了解什么是soft serve, 单纯因嘴馋而去了。大家，都去一去吧~

那个，椅子，挺舒服的；老板娘，挺漂亮的；冰淇淋与那复杂的配料分开吃，还挺不错的

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打仗了，都是人命，却只能认命。

走在竹林里，却不能感到平静，因为那里曾经布满恐慌求饶，曾经遍地死尸残骸；仁慈曾经奢侈，人性曾经迷糊。可笑的是，在人称的文明时代里却依然重演。

进步的是武器，逼近的是Ego，牺牲的是无辜

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瓶颈是，不知如何是好，没有更好的点子。

数不完的犹豫，挖不出的勇气，什么YOLO根本是逃避

心血来潮说不把双下巴当一回事儿，却转眼说要减肥。
月晕知风，础石湿润；其实善变不过是因为消化了新的资讯知识而分析出来的改变。

我说的都不是埋怨，只是想要更好。
当物质欲望变得容易满足，追求的目标，却更模糊了。
可千万别随波逐尘，应谨持刚、毅、木、讷，仁并吁修身、行、心

嗯，最近很幸福 = ) 

                                                                         

ｌｏｖｅ ｆｏｕｎｄ

近五天，是兴奋、是折腾；是挫败、是醒觉；

Can't remember the last time feeling so, the crucifixion for contentment and growth.

When the torment of exasperation cannot be understood, cannot be emphatized, but to be born alone.

Being welcomed home by the moon and stars, feeling like a　泄气的气球...

random it is, because it is.

  
一样是土地，却风情如此不同；

走着走着，不知觉地开始爱上不同的食物，开始品尝各类美食。

平时要是青苹果，肯定担心着涩涩的药水味。
近期在本地流行的nitro冰淇淋，在这33.8650° S, 151.2094° E的Azoto Apple yoghurt,竟有新鲜青苹果酸甜味， 搭配着pok pok感的鱼卵似珍珠，赞的啦！

美食当前，总是很满足地tuck in XD

Best to start the meal with...

How Australians have their cauliflower <3

and this must-have N2 nitro dessert

那时候我天灰灰地缺氧

那时候我枯燥燥地无情

直到接受了自己的情感，容许了洪水般的洗礼；
再次，我热情地大笑

女皇，消化了。再见，你。

you are left behind, we are left behind, you are no longer the one I am looking forward to.
Allow me, to look back once in a while, to make sure that I am moving on, moving further away from you.

歇斯底里（Hysteria）指无法控制地情感发泄。

看着四岁的她，哭得歇斯底里；
看着三十岁的她，哭得没有声音，没办法呼吸；

抱起四岁的她，眼泪也流了。

我明白，那无助、那彷徨、那悲愤、那崩溃。

你没有办法接受那样子的我，你说你讨厌那样发疯的我。
我承认，当下一定很可怕；我可以了解，你没有办法接受；
可是你明白，那种失去你的崩溃吗？

我爱你，我接受了事实。
我，想做朋友，你，几时才会按接受键?

you said that it's for the best, I also know that this is the best, our separation is the best, for both of us. I am glad that you have her, I can see that you love her, and she is good enough for you...I clearly know that, we are over. I know that, you have a new life, new friends, new you. 

松树仙已成

感谢，感恩。


感谢你的策划，感谢我们的乱阵，乱中有序，才是自驾行的意义，可不是么

世外桃源，close enough...

朕仅155毫米向天升，可见这帐篷之矮小；但，少过八小时的体验却让人回味无穷。
为何过去的回忆能让当下更有感触，甚至影响明天的步伐？
都说了，人，就是执著。而懦弱的我，选择屈服，选择溺毙在远远地爱你。

生命里特别的人很多

中学时，上课想睡觉、想偷懒、生病；
旅行时，想靠一靠，躲一躲；
修身养性时，想meditate,感谢你的大腿

一起不小心森林系

一起特地牛仔系

爱你，无条件；因为我们是朋友，不需要磨合妥协；因为一起走向未来，不需要创造同一个未来；所以我们没有摩擦，没有争吵，没有纠结，我们，会一直很好。
（好啦，承认你脾气真的很好，所以可以迁就我～）

ｐ／ｓ

亲爱的，没有忽略你的意思　只是，我们没有合照啦！！！

七情六欲，不可能断却，不就得拿捏得好，这等小事，怎可能难倒公主、鱼丸妹和女皇呢？



花絮：

scrumptiously delicious Tiramisu, with the just-nice-amount-taste of cognac, for a non-coffee person like me, this is an A+.

all photos in this post, credited to my dear Princess.^-^

噩

"you are back, i didn't ask why.
I do not need a reason.
We hugged so tight, you cried, I hugged you tighter."

大头。。。

Woke up, I thought that it was real, was going to make the call.

... ...

Shuddering in sorrow, wanting to yelp, the latent of ending the life of misery.

Can't even cry, to prevent swelling eyes for class later;
Can't even allow the emotion, to avoid the submerge and drown.

She said that "it's alright, it's not true."
I want it to be true so much....

Do it, do it right.

90 days of holidays, it's never intended to be left blank, but incredibly meaningful.

Beach, sunshine and tanned are doubtlessly not my thing. Yet, why not? Gutsy I am **chuckle

First close encounter with turtle at Turtle Park, Bali, 

aka the break up trip with my beloved ex.

Bringing no expectation but a belief that it's definitely going to be awesome, I indeed had a fantastically pleasant 5 days in Perhentian for turtle conservation.

Had been wanting to see turtles since ages ago, >>> was my second time having close encounter with turtle (the first time was not even worth mentioning).

After ~40 minutes of boat ride from Kuala Besut Jetty, (having to change boat in the middle of the ocean) I arrived at Coral Bay, being led straight to the cozy wooden house in the bush, a little but complete wooden house, surrounded by trees, but only eight steps away from the seaside, the perfect place for my five days stay. 

Hammick

Work space

Kitchen

I guess Nick was able to read how enthusiastic I was, and being unable to sit down quietly and do nothing, he brought me out for the first snorkel to look for turtles! I was lucky to see about five turtles during the first snorkeling, and I was astonished by Nick, who was in Perhentian for about four months, and was able to tell the name or code of each turtle that we saw! Also, Petros did mention to me earlier that they recognized the turtles by looking at their faces! I was like, seriously?! They are turtles! They do not have different faces,urhmmm, do they? WELL ACTUALLY THEY DO! EACH AND EVERY TURTLES HAS SIGNIFICANT AND UNIQUE FACIAL SCALES. The conservation programme takes photos of the turtles, recording each side of its face, its back (shell) and flippers. These photos act as photo ID of each turtle. After snorkeling and photo taking, we  matched the turtles we saw with the database. By recording the time and places of turtle activities, the programme is able to keep track with the numbers and I believe that the figure will be further utilized by institutions for research and conservation purpose.

Can you see the difference?

See the scales?

Yeah, snorkeling is daily routine for the programme, twice a day.

I was let to use the shower and Nick cooked me something nice, except with the garlic and onion ** laugh. Kidding Nick, it was not scrumptious but delicious enough to fill my grumbling stomach.

Thanks Nick!

I was extremely excited for the second night, as I was dutied for the night patrol. I enjoyed the boat ride to the nesting beach, the breeze was warm and the ocean was calm, and the sky that evening was so blue, WITH RAINBOW! 

Packed dinner prepared by Charlotte and Yun

The night patrol was meant to look out for turtle eggs theft (both human or non-human) and also, records of nesting activities. I wasn't lucky enough to see any turtles coming up to nest, but... ... I GOT TO RELEASE MANY MANY MANY HATCHED BABIES BACK TO THE SEA! 

THEY WERE JUST EXTRAORDINARILY, SPECTACULARLY, TERRIFICALLY ADORABLE!

<3 Photo credit to Kevin

The babies were taking their own sweet time to get use to the sand, to feel everything, turning on their senses.

We were assisting the Department of Fisheries for this. We collected the eggs and put them in the fenced hatching ground. If the babies are hatched at night, they will be released right away; if it happens during the day, they will be kept until night to avoid being eaten by the predator, to increase their chances of survival. yea, they are just so tiny. Looking at them crawling into the sea, wondering if they are swimming or being whirled away by the wave, yes I was so worried but... they gonna survive the obstacles. YES they will, well, some of them will, 1 out of 10,000 will. 

Was pretty scared, it was quite a long night for me, but yea, tiredness and sleepiness overtook my fear, slept soundly, blanketed with the breeze. 

Besides, with limited resources, creativity was eagerly needed for handcraft and arts. Charlotte and I made some coconut trees, out of trash, and created a beach-like model for their awareness campaign later. 

Pretty impressed with the realistic size turtle model made by Nick

There were some other interesting activities but the babies part was the most worth mentioning memory, I mean it. 

I abhor heat and sun but Petros told me that I gonna adore it towards the end of the programme. Well Petros, I dont think so, but I am kinda willing to sacrifice a little for all these cutie pies.

 

These cutie pies, look sooooo fragile. Bless you cuties <3

Hands-on contribution to animal conservation was indeed an admirable exposure and experience. Words from others can never be understood until we experience it ourselves. I crave for more, and yes the craving will be satisfied. 

你的文字，道进我的心坎

 情感，一直都是哀家的致命伤。

不，是朕！

朕要的，一定会得到！

想体验的，实践去吧！

也不晓得是麻木了，还是不想面对再一次的心碎，虽说也有幸福的可能。

不屑，其实只是掩饰，是这样么？

最近好忙好满，把自己搞得工作狂似。

其实非常享受：妈咪心肝宝贝；小叛逆好学少女；黑社会老大谦虚爸爸；小小绅士留学生；未知五人班。

看着五彩缤纷的纸，总是很想拥有。*别问为什么

每一张都那么美，却都没俘虏我心的。*是保留了？加锁了？还是，根本就不存在了？

可以同时拥有全部，都别叫我做抉择。

我走了，会回来。

小别胜新婚，与小别变离婚，根本就一线之差。嗤

谢谢你们！^___^

If I am not enjoying my life, nobody else would do it for me, and it would be a damn waste!

HAVE I ACHIEVE THE FULLEST? 

Ignore the naysayers, positivizing my input to advance my attitude,  

The unpredictability is amusing, a month of struggle, 9 more days left, and it’s still without outcome. 

If you were to stay, I wouldn't have been left.

Oh, while inscribing this, I was talked to, and… …

Queen, born to excel.

  ROOM, ROOMS TO BE EXPLORED AND FILLED! 

Story teller of my own!

p/s: I still love you, I do miss you, but it isn’t meaningful anymore.

为什么每次见到你，感觉还是一样。。。唉。。。

Alright

Feeling alive and motivated again

It’s the awesomest feeling when is inspired and enthused

AllsetLet'sgo

For the time being, needa be endorsed with more Queenie qualities: valour, fortitude and love.

贾詉毸～

为什么总是这样沉沦是他的离去把我变得怎样了还是根本是不自爱这样的故事作为你的消遣我的眼泪根本是个大笑话我无法自拔地享受着你给的习惯一次次见证你的谎言让我根本一点都不好受对不起你的她算是我朋友的她还以为能接受当下结果发现还是无法让自己不会感到愧疚虽然有一部分的自己觉得这样其实没有错因为想念而见面因为hiao而选择我的你就放我走吧请你放我走应该不难因为你不会一个人我却必须走得很辛苦因为你曾经是那个全部的分享与分担可是无论如何我一定要走因为这样的沦陷迟早搞死我纵使现在我已不想活了

最讽刺的是，原来今天是国际幸福日～

一忙完就生病？　抗拒劳碌命！！！

快三月了~

把眼泪留给你  把微笑留给我自己

一团糟的，不应该继续被纵容。

不明白的事情真多，不需要明白的事情也很多。

其实我没有你想象中的悲观

继续狂吃，然后在穿bikini前晚才努力做sit-up x 100

继续摆着奇怪的pose,然后狂笑

在一起的时候，真心诚意地为对方付出，用心领会对方的付出，即是相爱；

感觉不对了，就不必觉得亏欠。

你真的，没有亏欠我什么。

我的奋不顾身，不是为了你，是为了我自己。

因为，我的人生很宝贵，没有太多时间浪费。只是偶尔发发牢骚

长大，不是将工作爬上高职位设为目标，更不是把买房子娶老婆当成必然；是，你，知道你自己要什么吗？

给很多没有勇气，不知道在留恋纠结什么的朋友：

一跃而下，短暂的窒息，换来的是种什么释然，你必须亲自体验。

继续我的不知道高傲什么~

找个能每天陪我疯疯癫癫的，

偶尔彼此emo一下，

然后再给彼此个踏踏实实的拥抱

你的体力心智要很好，才能照顾我

我的心会很舒服，让你安安稳稳地住在里面

先，独自狂笑吧~