假装不在意。。。久了，会真的不在意了。

自己都给吓着了！

原来，我还有一点点介意，我，还，爱，你。

麻木了吧

被伤得怕了
我要的，你给了别人。
没关系，能给我的，也不是只有你一个。

nonsense after Peroni

each time you hurt me, I discover new way to defense and protect myself...

i am recovering myself, piece by piece, taking me back from you.
sooner or later, i can patch myself back to the original me, except with scars...

oh no!!!it can never be genuine one anymore!!!

or i should just take some drugs, increase the numbness, and let you have my pieces? hmm...worth thinking huh?

what do you want to do with your life if there is a choice

i never want to restart my life, although you've brought me pain, torment and misery. 

i never regret meeting you, and letting you to interrupt my peaceful life. 

you brought me to the wonderland, although it was a short trip, i was so happy, more than happy, the feeling noone could ever give me.

it was worth it, i believe.

i just want things to be better. and it's hard to believe that how hard this can be.

why did you say that i didnt hear you when i did? confusing.
why couldn't we reach a consensus when we've already discussed and talked? puzzling.
why solutions had been applied but no positive outcome? paralyzed.

what do you want? hug me tight and tell me that you want me so much. and we can work things out.

If i really have to choose, i will choose the middle one.  

not out of pessimism, but i want a happy ending.

The Merciless Divulging

sometimes, it is a natural reflection...
what is it? tears.

i thought i've been doing fine all this while
until the small incident reveals how fragile and depressed i am



and noone i can turn to
not because there's noone willing to listen, but they don"t make me comfortable to talk to...

there was once this person, who i thought i could lay bare my flimsiness to...
i was hastily reckless: he failed me...

healing takes time, and it may be forever.

just wanna be the special one. thought this is a reasonable one. but it isn't.



it was forgiven but it pricks me, once in a while, unfortified, unprepared, ouch