Saturday, 28 April 2018

吖 颓废的一周 赶快结束吧

我欣赏有想法的人,更爱慕付诸行动的人。
我喜欢能跟我论理说道的人,更容易爱上长发帅气的人。


过了不特别充实的一周。
不累,却疲惫;想睡,却失眠;想家了。

虚度了好多个下午,浪费了好多个夜晚;什么也没做,却连跟自己交谈的时间都没有。
这或许是这么多个月来最颓废的一周。

想把罪都怪在荷尔蒙上,总觉得有点不太负责任了。
想把罪都怪在周三晚那两小时的视频聊天,也好像太花痴了。

总之,就失眠了,却每天早上五点四十二分醒来,望着天花板;
身体在需要起床的时间总是瘫痪,总得拖个十几二十分钟才能动弹。

啊 短暂的学期 赶快结束吧 我想回家吖








Saturday, 7 April 2018

Pile of bullshit? I know you gotta agree with me at some point.

I think relationship and marriage are something to do with propaganda and to be with someone is just an addiction, with the slogan of "TRUE LOVE".

First of all, we are often being introduced to the pros of relationship and marriage, like how nice it is to be with someone you have "feelings" for and to have someone to take care of each other when we grow old. Yes, point taken.

When we end up in a terrible/abusive relationship or a jerk who totally screw up our lives, we just hit bad luck or "he's just not the Mr. Right" tend to be the answer. Like duh? How is that supposed to make us feel better?

It's not uncommon that we heard things like "hey, you're a  really nice person, why are you still single?" or "oh god, when can I meet the right one?" Why are we being shaped this way that we NEED and WANT someone to feel complete?

Is it the loneliness? Is it the peer pressure? I think it's the propaganda. We are so often being told to plot our lives in such a way that we want to get married at XX age, and of course, get a job before that. That's when the emptiness attacks, when we have gotten an awesome job but struggling to achieve the next life goal.

Then the addiction. We know that if we repeat certain behavior a number of times, it'll become a habit. Missing someone, having someone by your side all the time, someone to share your happy feelings and sad stories with, and yes, these are all habits, or I would rather call them the addictions, because addiction is for something that gives you pleasure but there're side effects, and terribly hard to get rid of. This so-called "someone special" gives us so much, the companionship, the listening ears, the "always there" and not forgetting the physical pleasure, and "pooooof!" just gone.

What, so you gonna die now? because of the bad luck and the "he's just not your Mr. Right"? Yeah, I feel like I can't breath and I literally feel like dying. Remember, the addiction? Just like when you take away the meth of a ten-years pothead, you think he is not literally dying? Yes, relationship is a habit, no, an addiction, that we often than not recklessly crave for.

So how do I relate this addiction to propaganda again? You know how little damage weeds can do to your body yet it's still being banned in many countries but how dreadful nicotine is yet it's available everywhere? There you go.

Do I sound like someone who just got dumped by a jerk? probably? but, seriously, give it a thought.

I genuinely wish every individual in the world finds the right other half and don't ever rush into any relationship for the sake of to be with someone. Well, don't be paranoid but never be dumb!