怎么可能不需要代价呢

纵然，；尽量豁达

曾经感谢已安排好的一切 只需按部就班 就能得安稳
后来，用尽了勇气 突破那保护层  才发现 求存比突破更需要勇气
大不了回到那温室 继续被任由摆布

先放纵吧
把骨子里的勇气都挤出来
爱面子是好事，用来隐藏那该死的懦弱

想起七个月前的气愤 现在真是自在 心灵也健康多了 设定追求的方向， 再努力跌倒 就行了 :-D

飞机天

还没遇到什么人之前 超爱庆祝节日
遇到某人之后 超想但害怕庆祝节日
会遇到一个人 和我一样 很隆重珍惜地跟我一起庆祝
生日快乐
今年. 是特别的 ^__________^

today wasnt a very good day although i thought it was

其实我很担心问了不是很该问的东西结果招来很担心很担心她是我的唯一 我，真的很担心
然后我很伤心很想离开这伤心的地方去到哪里都是我们的曾经我讨厌你恨死你把我当什么什么都不说什么都不问每次都是他们在我之前他们到了就下来我到了我就自己回家你很失败可是我知道我自己更失败有后悔过把那么多时间金钱丢在你身上自己要做的事情的不做想买的东西都不舍得买到头来我只是你的一个后备什么狗屁

某天，梦见了architect, 从此幸福快乐的生活一辈子

最近的日子 好似闹剧

被冤枉 

被自以为了解我的人冤枉；

被我以为了解我的人冤枉

期待，等待，虐待

                                                        受了的委屈 自己收着就好 

有些人假装借了肩膀，其实满怀狼意

有些人真心借了肩膀，却不能天长地久

问了也不是 不问也不是

若要不在乎 那得把心关
若要把心关 那得把情收

彻底并不能一瞬间
彻底 需要未知：
未知：包括一辈子

他们说，不要找个男人依靠；我问，那找个男人干嘛？

他们轻轻地笑了

笑得奸诈

笑得无奈

呵呵

need hug

真的好生气

好累

谁能了解这种无理这这种委屈

是我们太嫩吧

受不了苦。。。

No pain no gain huh

You have embarrassed me 

You do me one bill? Sorry that you have to pay your previous debt too.

两个男人

=女王被禁=
要卸冠 换上贤惠公主套装 

如果思念不是一种病，至少她让人生病了
病得不轻 病得疯了
思念不是一种选择，是一种猖狂的失控

那晚，又恋爱了
甜蜜被唤起了 
虽然有挣扎 可是甜蜜是份无法控制的感觉 在心里 密密麻麻

戏剧化又怎样  反正不可能真实
那场景 那面容 近完美

又开始想念了 可不是嘛

当太多负面素质冲着自己来，真是时候检讨了

真的 ， 随心所欲的时代过了吗？

try to cover as much as possible

没有打击 怎么可能 可是好快一会儿 就没感觉了 好事呗

i think i have really fallen in love with this profession
i thought i had no more interest in it, but the passion returned, when I started in the field again.

i love and enjoy what i am doing
and i despise what THEY are doing

i sympathize the innocent, angelic and honest souls.
they have been slowly engulfed by the irresponsible, impassioned, impatient wreckers...
whom they did not realize themselves, they are the vandal of the immaculateness and  iconoclast in education

but kids, hang on and pray more : >

看不见

好久没阅读喜欢的文章 读了 又被撩起了 又混浊了

她的淡定 好心寒
从他的眼神里 她看到了一个大世界 某天，他的眼神离开了她 ，她一无所有
她离开 去了好远 以为忘了 某天，一个封面，全都想起了 想起了失去的什么

每次 都有种魂不符身的感觉 飘飘的 轻轻的 感觉自由 感觉解放 感觉足够
开心也没有 伤心也没有 却有些些的幸福 没有要求 就刚刚好


为了他 因为他 所以她
自我愿意地烦躁
自我愿意地倾心
自我愿意地放纵
自我愿意地离开



害怕有一天大笑了，才发现忘了上次大笑是几时
会不会有一天 不再拥抱不再热吻 触摸也不再含蓄
偶尔想起那时去痛饮的那家 却不会再光顾

再爱 也只是曾经
自以为会记得一辈子
自以为会值得一辈子

回首 那灯火阑珊处 不会有什么

要么 就别独自在黑夜里
特别寂寞 特别易醉

要么 就牵着那个他的手
牵得特紧 抱得特暖

老是容易失控
怎么了？不就是害怕忘了这骨子里的笑容

一直走一直走一直走 也忘了怎么来到这么大一片绿原 草不太长不太短 不太刺不太湿 就这样一直走 腿酸了倒下 透过眼皮依然看见那温柔的阳光 不知觉却又再一直走 一直走 没有目的地却不会惊慌 时间无所谓 不知怎么开始脚步轻盈了许多 起了舞 跳着一直很想跳的舞步 脚踮手伸 有股力量从左胸穿梭到右手中指尖 突破 继续奔向半公里外那棵树心 没追究 继续着下一个没彩排过的动作 不会累 就一直到有水滴弄湿了额头 才发现动作不知什么时候停止在倒立 手长了根 也蔓延了 也无所谓了

我愧疚 可是我满足

我努力了  只是一场空
因为心没有在努力 只是那躯壳在劳动

一次次地不想出席
只因为不想努力挤进那没有connection的聊天，没有connection的互动，没有connection的笑声

原本以为可以努力做好分内工作，那大家以后见面不尴尬
后来才发现并不是那么简单
心里的挣扎 不想带上面具 更不想牺牲跟爱人们腻在一起的时间

不要说以前，因为全都不一样了

因为某人对我不好 我讨厌他了
不想见到有些人 因为很客套
其实，只是失去了兴致，失去了沟通的能力，失去了魅力，失去了一些友情


我想，我只是不习惯，spotlight不再在我身上；而变得不自然

我爱爸爸妈咪大姐哥哥二姐还有我男人

我想
我的生命应该更精彩



而不单是每天期待与你拥吻

blink and gone. i am a freak

=it was just within a blink=

the hidden tsunami beneath the carefree mask.

yes, i have been depressed.
i just couldn't get over those failures in my life, which i never expect and thus i didn't know how to handle it.

yes i talked to people. but the needle wasnt pricked on their flesh, they wont understand.

i lost myself since that day. i was afraid and shocked of my respond. i ran and i needed a hug from that specific people, but, none.

people with low IQ and low EQ can only do this much... watching all the "should be" flying away, and nothing can be done.


i've lost my second upper class, i've lost him, i've lost myself.

apple-polish? gentle? rational? self-control?
sorry- epic fail

lol

Helpless... for real...

SO helpless. This is what i have been trying to avoid.
I complain and quit jobs because i was unable to tolerate the unreasonable and the inhumanity. And i know i have my mom n dad n a home to go back to n feed me
This time, i have to unconditionally get along with the unprofessionalism and this is costing A LOT of my youth, my patience, and my passion!

Oh dear!

I sigh so hard and I cry so loud
Bang not BANG!

Btw, i am so blessed with good friends around me. Thank you my dear friends... Lol = lots of love

seriously?

first of all, i was shocked of my own response.

i did not know that this would upset me so much...
the negative emotion troubles me when i am alone, driving alone, sitting alone, lying on the bed alone.

ridiculously treating us all like idiots yet nothing i can do. justice?
corruption will stay forever?
I am not willing to wait for another five years >heartache<
i wonder if God has His noble plan, for him to bear the serious consequences later, or my homeland is a forgotten land by Him.

show time?
popcorn is ready.

真的很差 唉

热恋已经好远 安稳却迷了路

我一走了之 你完全不来 半斤八两





打击很大 除了哭 不知道还能怎样
谢谢那小小的拥抱 让我笑了一下






女人 真的不可以把一个男人看得太重
他轻轻把你一甩，你死不了，却粉身碎骨 半死不活

因为你，不是为了你

在那熙熙攘攘的人群里， 我孤立彷徨着

可不可以，你很勇地冲出来，紧紧抱着我，紧贴我的双唇，
让我明白，穿梭后的疲惫，有你在。

dislike *______*

people read to me what I could read myself, I thought that my request was clear: explain to me please.

why i cannot understand the language in this cage anymore? the cage people talk cock all the time. being spied, threatened and bullied all the time; irony.
a cage of no rationale, no humane, no communication. as though the Hitler has came back.

Hope was gone. Target had lowered. Life was manipulated. Mess had taken over to rule.

who the hell cares? o well, i do care. cause it's gonna ruin my life!!!

his cuddle, the only med to calm me down; yet his single kitten yell tripled my tension.
i wanna stay home, in my cocoon, never to become a butterfly.

诱惑that isn't tempting at all

当不能抉择
投币的答案 却能偶然地，发现心里真正想要的

One feeds stomach and one feeds soul 
one is be loved and one is to love
one is to not die while one is to live

this time, a whole loaf. 

... ... ... ...

hate seduction and temptation

... ...

glad that principles and loyalty are beheld well!

if this has to be true

some facts are hurtful, especially when it comes out from the wrong mouth.

is love uncertain, unpromising, and unnoticed?

 

i love you and i want things to be alright.

Unbearable concerns

The changes in body are felt.

Devilish is easily addicted to.

Principles are no longer abide to.

Lifeless life has pushed us too far, its constraints have became our great excuses
Should the mundane life be excusably blamed?
or should instead learn to bear the responsibility?

Becoming materialistic but this shall not be the final resolution

＜3

恭喜有情人总成眷属

在逐渐长大的大家 都忘了单纯的甜蜜
很庆幸 身边还有两对这样的恋人
不过分 却也掩饰不了的甜蜜
不让人作呕 反让周围的人都献上衷心的祝福


要恩爱噢！

原来死心也是要学的

你 原来是个花花公子

原来 花花公子就是这么一回事

有心或无意 都已无所谓

已经不是第一次看透你

可惜 犯贱也很执著

任你糟蹋 任你的朋友们看笑话

任大家觉得我智商低 情绪化 公主脾气 不会照顾你

所以 你有了那其实是借口的理由

奄奄一息地  等待你的专一  等待你的痴情

也等待着你的赦免，那狠狠的一刀 捅下来 不再等待

情人节可以血腥吗

你无法了解的恐惧

哭泣对眼睛一点都不好











张开了眼睛 却还是一片漆黑














会不会有那么一天?

but i love you

There are excuses you've found, to leave me

maybe i was never a caring girlfriend, nor an understanding girlfriend, never a good girlfriend...

and u said that i used to miss him as much as i do now
i would have to say no silently... you do not know how much i miss you every minute when you aren't by my side...

the communication breakdown has been there, for quite a long time...

and soon enough, realize that I dont even have that tiny bits of human nature...

that's why i am an alien

i know why i am sick... but i don't know how to cure...

and i shall never forget, how you lie at my face

因为有你在心里

有再多的抗拒 又如何

他也了解
他的女朋友是个聪明人
只是情商太低
负数的可能性并不低



您的一通电话

郁闷都不见了


却也回来得很快。。。除了无奈还是无奈



所以不想多余的对话
寂寞也罕有
有爱 世界末日没什么了不起 只怕它不敢来

i dont like it : _ (

it's attacking...
   and i am so scared...

will your love bring me home?